Monday, May 30

Days of innocence......



I see you all having a good time together... i remember

Not long ago we were kids...How things have changed..  We have become men.. with kids and families of our own.. Time and life has driven us across continents...

Remember all four of us going to school in our Blue shorts and white shirts..   Far away from fashion or the things that make the world go round..
Biggest worry the impending school exams. The biggest joy playing cricket with classmates...  Do anything to avoid the first and acheive the second..

Remember the time when we used to drive the history teacher mad so that she would give us time out and one by one all the 13 boys would be sent out..
 the last one out always carried the Bat and the ball to play cricket. :).. Remember the time when the  Maths teacher would say write Given and to Prove in our geometry tests so that at least we would get some marks.. he beleived we were good for nothing... So many memories.. All of then inconsequential in the day and age we live in...

Yet those memories linger..  bonds remain and friendships endure..


We who have seen so much..  There is more to live and see..


To my freinds... live on and remember


Cause i do...


Here's to old friends and new life...

Cheers
gaiijin

Monday, July 13

Its a Girl !!!



I used to think all babies look alike...  wondered if it was a boy or a Girl that i saw in the picture i wrote about a while back. I hoped it was a boy.

Boy was i wrong....

Been blessed with an angel of a daughter i just realized how different it feels to hold your child.  A being so tiny yet i already see personality and attitude..

I guess thats the joy of parenthood. One must endure to enjoy... My wife if she reads this would give me the eye for alluring to the period of pregnancy as enduring.. Believe me enduring was being modest . A pregnant woman is another being... but that is a topic for another day.

For now i still desire to live and  enjoy the little smiles my angel give me from time to time..

You brought joy to my life.. i know the pains are round the corner.. Yet, I wouldn't have it any other way...

Like i said one must Endure to enjoy...

Here's to Alannah my daughter..

Kanbei !

Gaiijin

Sunday, July 14

Love is like a Dog.. Different isn't it ... :)


I haven't seen a lazy idle dog bite anyone . But even lazy idle dogs bite when they get get bothered or irritated ...

Love is that Dog that we bother so much even when it is happy playing with you that it ends up first with a warning growl and  trying to bite without hurting and then a real good bite where it hurts the most...

Our expectations get so ahead of us that we ignore the warnings and get bitten for real... We don't let things be and be happy..

When have you really seen a person happy in love... CONTINUOUSLY

So either way love bites .. Enjoy while the happiness lasts cause surely we will end up looking for the unhappiness..

Old Chinese Saying "be careful what you wish for"...
"You just might get it"

cheers !


Gaiijin

A story with with a perspective....


There is this story about a couple a man and a woman, who loved each other to eternity, married to each other for 30-40 Yrs.

Then one day the woman falls ill and is on her death bed. The Gods are so moved by their love for each other that they come and talk to the man and tell him... "Look your mate's time has come and she has to die.

What can we do help",we cannot extend her life.. The man thinks long and hard and his gaze falls on the tree in his courtyard and he says. "When my love dies let her soul reside in the tree yonder. So be it say the GODS and the woman dies... Every day the man longingly waters the tree, sits in the shade and talks to tree and in return the woman's soul talks back and they are happy again.. After a while they feel that it is not the same as before and they pray to the Gods.

The gods appear and ask what they want.. So the man says if my love's soul has to reside somewhere let it reside in me so that we shall be together all the time. The Gods say that it is not possible as one body cannot have two souls. The couple finally make the GODS agree. The Gods put the woman's soul into the man. For a while they are happy and then after a few days the man stops eating and he dies. Their son asks the Gods why did my dad stop eating and why did he die.

The God says, their souls were together, their thoughts were one. Their pains now were multiple.

There was nothing more to share, there was nothing left to live for...



Gaiijin

Memories of a time 8 years Ago...



"Love is elusive.... It is fleeting feeling of longing and loss. Sometimes exhilaration and Bliss... sometimes unfathomable sorrow...

Love is when you want to be with a person anytime and every time despite the fact that you end up feeling all o the above...

Love is walking the woods together just not speaking out... or sometimes love is walking in the woods alone not feeling that you are alone because you are in love...

Love is..... I guess we are all suckers for pain, because it makes us realize the joy we miss when we are not with the person we love...

In the End love is that elusive thing that keeps us all alive...

Love is.. ?

Well Love is........... "

Gaiijin

Friday, May 3

Boy or a Girl...


Life, hopes & dreams.. One day I was such a baby !

Now this is what I wrote in Facebook and then realized that it was probably not the right place for being honest.. More about that sometime else...  When i look at the picture, I see me as a child holding on to my Dad' hand..  Why do i think this is a Boy Dunno...


Just a feeling perhaps.. The grip around the finger is strong. Such a strong statement from a being so tiny.. Wish I had one of my own.. Would have been great to share a Life


Would have been magical to see a part of me growing up...  


Who knows .. Maybe.. Maybe...


Que Sera Sera...


...

A New day A New Beginning..

Monday morning... going to work i drive through a road by a canal with trees on one side.. A little foggy t'was with the temperature at 4C.  This is a secluded road with a canal on one side and trees on the other...
Considering that its a really really lonely stretch at the night they have a police outpost...

Normally i do not have the time of the day for the guys there ( Are you surprised considering ho much they are effective in their jobs?)

As I was about to cross the check post two men huddling in their respective blankets smiling, waved me a hand to stop me . I rolled down the window a little bit.. one of the Guys spoke.. He said "Sir could you please give me a lift to the end of the road".. looking at him shuddering in the cold , couldn't bring myself to say no.. So i asked him.. "Are you a cop/.. he said yes".. so i asked him to get in and started driving...

The guy was in his early twenties, from Hissar , Haryana worked for Delhi police... We started chatting and i asked his where was he off to.. He said Saket court and said i have to reach there by 10:00 Am .. Twas already 9:30 Am. He started talking about how his day starts at 7:00 am and finishes at 9:00 pm.. Asked him where he was lodged, He told me When i am late  ( which is every day) i sleep in the police station on the bench.. He was quite keen and yet looked so motivated towards his work.


Sunday, January 6

Are all of us human? Sometimes am ashamed to say i am one...



A lot has been said about the brutal case in Delhi... Read an article in the HT Delhi which talked about this not being for pleasure but, for the pleasure he ability to cause such extreme pain gives some people.. . This was a sadistic act where all the effort was made to give pain almost like a torture. Is our society turning people into sadists where the slightest freedom lets them lose their values and become sadists?

It is a slur on humanity and even animals conduct themselves better. These people forgot every sense of of human value they had when they committed this crime.. They are like a rot which has to be cut away before the body becomes healthy again...  My deepest condolences for the family..

Hope that those responsible be given the maximum punishment and hope they suffer while this punishment is exercised so that no other my dare contemplate such an act...

May her soul rest in peace...

Gaiijin  

Monday, December 31

We See what we want to...

My previous post talked about love and betrayal. had a few comments there from people. Most considered the post in light of a romantic betrayal. Love exists in many forms, between brother & Sister, Mother and children etc etc... It could be real or perceived..  But its real for the person who feels it.. Think of what a betrayal would feel in such a relationship..

Devastating isnt  it.. Yet it shows us how resilient we are as human beings...


gaiijin...

Sunday, December 30

betrayal and Love or is it betrayal of love

Makes you wonder isn't it.. Should it be love n betrayal or should it be betrayal of love.... I guess there cannot be  betrayal without love.. And boy does it hurt... it does.    Had a friend go through it recently.. One can see the pain visibly.. That the hurt of disappointment .. of a sense of loss which cannot be explained...  Luckily for my friend she had someone who loved her immensely stand by her to hold her hand.and make her laugh despite her tears.... I guess it is in such times one finds out who loves you and will stand by you..

I can see better times ahead for her and hope when my time come. Am as lucky as she was... Given a choice i'd rather be kicked by a mule..

C'est la vie....

gaiijin

Monday, November 12

Jealousy is an awesome emotion...

I don't feel jealous.. How many times have we heard that.. Especially from  guys..  I guess that's a very macho statement....  Only women are supposed to feel jealous... Is that for real...

I dunno.. Jealousy is an emotion to be felt for one to realize the power of truth.. I have seen one of my male friends feel jealous.. Trying to explain it in a management parlance.. Jealousy is a lagging indicator..

Suffice to say Only those in love can feel jealous..

So would it be fair to say that if you are jealous you are in love.. !

I didn't say that .. those in love did..

Here's to love and strong emotions..

Be jealous..  and proud...

:)